ooooh, fuck me. this mental transition that apparently clicked into place over the weekend is going to be utter hell for the entire duration of it. i'm honestly really mad about this because while i cannot remotely call this experience "pleasurable", it also isn't... not? uuugh, this is not ideal due to how much it takes out of me mentally but it isn't like being worn thin from fatigue. i don't have words beyond just how unnaturally intense everything is.
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