cw: pain
i'm currently a bit indulgent in attempting to neutralize these pseudo-frissons, as it's sorta like my baseline experience is dialed up too high and there is all this random static being picked up along with everything else. then that noise gets hit with the perfect opposing frequency, just collapsing the entire thing to this perfect absence. so instead of restoring the original balance i have to reset the perceived baseline to approximate the same thing. sigh, if only it were that easy.